Social skill

Went out with my college mates 2 days ago but all I did was, being quiet~ I did not do it on purpose just that I do not really know what to talk about, maybe I am sick of finding topic as I need to do that everyday for my job, talking to kids~ or, my PR is more on kids nowadays and topics that I can think of is rather kiddy~ OMG!!! Maybe I should brush up my PR by changing my job~ kekekek...

Well, these days, I am rather haunted by one of my friend's complain about me being self-centered and contact ppl who I like only. At first, I do doubt myself being a gal like that (gals that I dislike and definitely hate it if I am 1 of them). But, I realise I am not actually like that... not finding excuses to cover myself, but I AM NOT LIKE THAT~~ I am worse, I dont even contact ppl that I actually have feeling enough~ I fall for the same guy again recently, but I contacted him only when I am free like, on some weekends and the 4th day of CNY (and he said I contact him too much already, see, its not my fault, I influenced by this kinda ppl). And also, I do not reply my ex-bf's msges in friendster as often as i used to though i still love him loads (as a friend). Don't tell me I do not love my parents, but I do not contact them if they do not take the initiative of calling me. And my best friend, I don't mind not contacting her for a year now (i think) knowing that we will still be in each others heart and mind, and lets not forget my ah kor and SK who swim with me, think in this case, I am lucky you guys always think of me (or the swimming pool), at least I still have you and the activity that connect us and save me from being a complete loner.

Conclusion, I do not contact only those ppl who I like (have feeling towards), but I basically contact others only when I am free.

Is THAT normal?? I thought it is... cause my friends contact me when they are free too but if its not normal and I am to start contacting everyone, guess ppl will notice that I am faking it and yeah, thats not me and guess it will be real tiring~ If that will suck up my life, well, I shall say sorry to myself then~