A Piece of News

Despite all the worries and deep thoughts, I finally made my first step of going out with a guy. He is a normal guy, got to know him at work, nothing special, but MAN enough~ kekekeke... The story started like this...
Now, everyone knows that I've join a new company. We actually distribute wooden toys and my first big case is with this formula company (milk powder) and they are looking for premiers for their events. So, they wanted their brand name to be silk screened on our products so, now, I have to deal with this printing company. As it was quite urgent and apparently the boss doesnt like our case as there were some history behind. Innocent me, had to visit the factory really often to check whether stuff are gonna be ready. And I met him...
We talked, smsed, chat on phone, went for 8TV summer concert... As it was real late, I invited him to my place (blocking the eggs from hitting me with both arms). I PROMISE, we just chat and chat (maybe kiss a little) till its time for me to go for art class.
But now there's a major problem that involve my closest friend.... I wonder what should I do? Worse come to worse... should I just give this relationship up?

Vinegar Jar~

I know this sound really really really stupid. Viewed TH's facebook profile and realise that he has lots of pets particularly gals, I know that this is just some game that people play when they are too free. But when I got to see this notice saying that he used a huge amount (though its not real $) to purchase who who who as pet, jealousy filled me. I was consoling myself and tried smiling hard.
Till... This new guy smsed me a real touchy msg. He told me last nite that he will tell me his feeling by smsing me today as he need to aturkan the words, the words sounds familiar, think its from a song. But the moment I was reading it, I cried. God is really having fun, fooling me~

Forwarding.

What do I look for in DVD series? Subtitles of course. I am not a patient person and therefore, I know its not fun, but I will just press on the forward button and look at the fast forwarded pictures and read the subtitles when I watch Korean/Taiwanese drama.
In life. I love jumping into conclusion. I want to be fast, get a friend fast, get into a job fast, get use of everything fast. Sometimes, I feel like having a marriage straight off without having to go trhough relationships, I want to be as fast and competent as my boss at work though I am only here for 1 and a half months, I want to send the stock at the first meeting with potential customers. I always wish that I can fast forward to the 2nd last chapter of my life and just go through the last 2 chapters.
Who knows, maybe this is my second last chapter already~

Long Lost 'Friend'

Due to boringness, I joined English tuition class with my cousins when I was 6. And being the youngest in the class, of coz, they have to bear with my kiddyness and rudeness~ muahahahah~

I was like the King in the class till this guy came in and ruin everything. He would talk back at me, make me feel stupid though i was really stupid etc etc. When we were split into 2 classes to prepare them for their UPSR, I promise myself that I will never want to see him again.

Being a GROWN UP now, I met him in friendster and started a conversation with him, filling up each other about what had happen to us after those farnie quarels had been ended.

Through friendster profile, I found out that we had the same BIRTHDAY~ Isn't that weird and scary? According to Chinese saying (back to being superstitious), when 2 person has the same birth time, conflict will happen and see... its so true~ kekekekeke

Love songs...

Thanks to my colleague that love Ah Mei, I've been listening to her songs for 2 days. Listening to the sad love songs that are singing about the sad or fading love, the fear of getting into relationships came back to me. To me who is waiting for true love to occur, this is what I thought when I was listening to the songs...

"Oh ya, I was like that when I was with TH"
"What a good girl I am to end the relationship smiling, though it was painful"
"That sounds so familiar"
"Shit! If I am to get myself into a relationship, I will need to go through all these again?"
"OK, maybe I am too pessimistic, I should think positive. There is a huge possibility that my next 1 will be a happy 1"
"NO! I do not want this to happen"

Conclusion, to be sure that these will not happen on me again, I shall not get myself into anything that involve love.

Quoted some lines that put me into deep thoughts...

"不能放纵爱你就放过自己"
"我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮"
"爱情已经过了甜蜜期多说也是无益"
"我恨你最后那一句我爱你"
"爱会让人不自由"
"都怪我 太不争气我恨我爱你"

Superstitious

Was reading a friend's blog and it reminds me of an incident that happened 2 weeks ago. It was a good day. WHY? Nee bought me lunch, and its not normal lunch, we went to Great Eastern Mall for Nyonya food, yummy yum yum~ After that, we discovered that there's a MPH there, so, Books... here we come~ While Nee was busy going through the books, I discovered Lilian Too's Chinese horoscope booklets for year 2009~ (I know, we are still 4 mths away from 2009).
Talking about anual luck, 2008 is suppose to be a good year for my career and a disasterous year for my gambling luck + love luck. And since I just started my new job, I just hope that my careeer luck will continue being superb :p Will not talk about career luck now... just don't wanna jinx it~
After career, health and finance, I flipped to this section where relationship between horoscope was defined. Since I have 2 person in my mine at that time, I went to Ox and Dragon. Suprisingly, both were positive. Relationship between Rat and Ox is harmonious, just like us, while relationship between Rat and Dragon is competitive, JUST LIKE US!!!

Hello, Goodbye~

Another friend leaving for work... Will miss you~

Assumption

Most of the time, what you assume would turn out just WRONG!!!

When to be playful?

Recently, a friend commented that (she thinks) I deserve a better man than the guys that I am thinking of or going out with. Here goes the conversation betweeen her and my spokelady...

C: Why does KT like him? She deserve someone better
J: She is just playing around.
C: But if she wants to play around, shouldn't it be earlier? like highschool time or college time?
J: Well, she is playing around all the time what...
C: ....speechkes...

First of all. I DO NOT PLAY AROUND. I am just choosing and finding the suitable person for myself. Why wasn't I going out with guys when I was in high school? My parents.... Why didn't I go out in college time? I want to concentrate on my studies (my head.... I was going out a lot already). Moreover, I do not go out with guys a lot nowadays... too busy working~~~

To me, I think a person start being playful when he/she finally realise that relationships are not easy and as innocent as how it was thought in the old days when he/she still thinks that LOVE is PURE and Relationships are PERFECT~~ Maybe, it might happen that one day, he/she will realise that LOVE isn't really that bad and there's a bright way to it, then they will settle down. Guess, I'm still at that stage where LOVE is just about bullshitting.

I'm not trying to be rude to those who had found the meaning of LOVE. In fact, lucky you for realizing it so early~~

Fantasy

Recently, my best bestie friend is having some problem while I am still having my day and nite mood swing as usual~ yeah, my mood swing drastically when it reach nite time. NO! I am not Dracula.... Just that, I can switch from a I-CAN-DO-IT gal to a I-NEED-A-SHOULDER-NOW! kinda gal. So, here comes our DREAM (nonsense)....

We shall go back to our nice little cosy hometown, Batu Pahat.

We will work in some company and not expect too much~
We will still travel to Spore or KL to do our monthly shopping.
We will read books (thats why we need our shopping trip, we have only Popular)
We will play golf, squash, tennis... whatever that enable her to wear her super mini skirt
I shall continue my Piano class while she goes for singing class
She will learn dancing while I learn martial art
We will go back to art class~ she will learn sketching while I learn Chinese painting.

Gosh... this is so tempting... so, what is holding us back?
Her: LOVE, Studies, self-expectation, etc.
Me: Career, Freedom, Friends, etc.

BP life is so near but yet so far...

Interesting Life

Yeah, recently, I am busier, compare to my life in Cosmotots. Meeting more people, going to more places, getting lost in KL more often, etc. Being in the second month of my new job, I do doubt my ability sometimes, not because I do not get more accounts, not because my boss is not happy with me... BUT, my boss hasnt confirm me!! and my probation period is suppose to be only a month and it will only be extend if I am not performing well~ So, I decided to ask my boss about it and I e mailed her. Her reply was positive. Guess she has forgotten that there is such thing as probation~ Somemore I mentioned that "I have been working for slightly more than a month" in my mail~ Bah... let's wait till she is not that busy~ That might be the day she retire then.
In the other hand, I have to congratulate myself as I had took the first step to healthier life~ signing up gym~ But I am still going through some dilemma, not knowing whether I should take RM 140 per month for 1 year contract or RM 85 per month for 2 years contract. 4 more days before decision need to be made... Went for body combat class last saturday plus the swimming session I am still having with Gor... my whole body is aching like hell now!!! I think I will break into parts later in fly wheel class~ Gosh~