The Little Mermaid

Was labelling books for my work place... No, I am not a librarian, but a mentor who need to do everything since this is a new centre. So, I had this book "The Little Mermaid" in my hand and Yeah, I LOVE this story loads... Unlike other disney princess, she is real brave. She didn't need her prince to kiss her to get her back to life. She didn't need him to kiss him in order to break the sleeping spell. She didn't need her prince to come to her house with the glass slipper so that she can stop being a maid. She didn't need to trade herself for the freedom of her father and then be the beast's property., ok, maybe Beauty is quite brave also... But still, I LOVE Ariel who is always wanting more for herself and work hard for what she keen for.

Social skill

Went out with my college mates 2 days ago but all I did was, being quiet~ I did not do it on purpose just that I do not really know what to talk about, maybe I am sick of finding topic as I need to do that everyday for my job, talking to kids~ or, my PR is more on kids nowadays and topics that I can think of is rather kiddy~ OMG!!! Maybe I should brush up my PR by changing my job~ kekekek...

Well, these days, I am rather haunted by one of my friend's complain about me being self-centered and contact ppl who I like only. At first, I do doubt myself being a gal like that (gals that I dislike and definitely hate it if I am 1 of them). But, I realise I am not actually like that... not finding excuses to cover myself, but I AM NOT LIKE THAT~~ I am worse, I dont even contact ppl that I actually have feeling enough~ I fall for the same guy again recently, but I contacted him only when I am free like, on some weekends and the 4th day of CNY (and he said I contact him too much already, see, its not my fault, I influenced by this kinda ppl). And also, I do not reply my ex-bf's msges in friendster as often as i used to though i still love him loads (as a friend). Don't tell me I do not love my parents, but I do not contact them if they do not take the initiative of calling me. And my best friend, I don't mind not contacting her for a year now (i think) knowing that we will still be in each others heart and mind, and lets not forget my ah kor and SK who swim with me, think in this case, I am lucky you guys always think of me (or the swimming pool), at least I still have you and the activity that connect us and save me from being a complete loner.

Conclusion, I do not contact only those ppl who I like (have feeling towards), but I basically contact others only when I am free.

Is THAT normal?? I thought it is... cause my friends contact me when they are free too but if its not normal and I am to start contacting everyone, guess ppl will notice that I am faking it and yeah, thats not me and guess it will be real tiring~ If that will suck up my life, well, I shall say sorry to myself then~

Status

Sometimes when two person get close and friendly, guesses come into mind, thinking, what are this counted as, normal friends, more-than-normal friends, good friends, sth more than good friends, 'ai4 mei4', potential lovers, etc etc. Being semi sensitive, I will tend to read between lines and start interpretating. I used to be someone who will confront and ask for a clear question... but now, well, i am very timid... always afraid of losing friends~ I really wish that I do not have feeling... towards anyone or anything...

爱是不是不开口才珍贵~~

Deep thoughts...

Holiday...

yeah, I had 10 whole days of holidays and I had spent it in my hometown, Batu Pahat, missed both x'mas and new year countdown as I have curfew and the miss if the luck but I thought I did sth romantic that was not seem to be appreciated... BUt in this ten days, there are things that happened between my friends and I that made me think even more (thought ppl keep telling me that I already think too much)! Well, thats life isn't it? we are born with brains and heart not without reasons~

It is just another bad day~

1. woke up at 7.42 when I am suppose to wake up at 7 and start work at 8.30
2. hurt by a stapler bullet (and it bleed)
3. had a little conflict with one of my best friend but controllable
4. bought a packet of rice that look delicious but not very delicious in the end
5. got the bad news that 2 of my kids are on leave on friday and will not be able to perform a play which we had been practising since a month ago
6. have to wait in front of the car while the cleaner was cleaning my car at 8.15 and mid valley is not 24 hours
7. there was a long queue at the box office
8. there was a long queue at the atm
9. I have only 16.xx in my account
10. There isn't any Hong Leong atm
11. withdrawl is insufficient at Mayban atm using Hong Leong atm card

Should I feel glad that it has not reach a dozen??
tomorrow shall be a better day.

12. my friend just reminded me that I had missed last nite's GHOST WHISPERER...........

Since about 2 years ago, I got to know this guy who is known as a playboy by most people that know him. After being advised by number of people, I become rather careful when I am conversing or communicating with him. But due to my slow working mind, all I did was to regret of not replying in a better way. 对着空气还击着你的问题~ To make sure that I will not jump into the trap, I try my best to ignore him and try not let myself fall into his sweet sweet trap that involve lots of sweet talk and techniques(not sexual)推辞每次真实的相聚, 沾沾自喜拒绝的魅力, but well, we still go out once or twice for drinks and everytime when we are out alone, I feel like going home or to hang out with other friends. 我也许喜欢想像你, 多于得到你

But well, accident happens... we went out again one nite, and after some talking and his sweet talk, we agreed to get together for a try since he has commitment phobic after his 4 year relationship with a controlling galfriend and since I do not believe in relationships after both my relationships which are very different but still doesnt work well. 那天你眼神泄漏孩子气 我偷偷下定给你幸福的决定That whole day, I was figuring whether that relationship is worth a try or not and the fact that most of the people that I mentioned about him with doesnt really like his attitude. to get assurance, I became a dependent gf for 12 hours msging and calling him once in 5 hours and at the end of the day, we had a talk and ended the 'relationship' 我也许喜欢想像你 多于得到你 At the end of the day, I felt both relieve and lost~

一开始你 就准备好最后一集 你抽身的干净 till now, we had not communicate properly. Well, that life i think~ The people that you will meet comes in a package of variety~